Why I Wrote The Perfectionist’s Dilemma

How I Rewrote the Inner Script of Perfectionism—And You Can, Too

I know what it feels like to be trapped by perfectionism—because I’ve lived it.

My wake-up call came just after earning my PhD in clinical psychology. It was a summer afternoon, and my toddlers were playing on the swing set while we enjoyed a family barbecue. With a tray of food in one hand and grilling utensils in the other, I suddenly felt a searing pulse run from my face down to my fingers. My speech slurred, and I could only mutter one word to my husband: “911.” The only thought in my mind was, I’m going to die in front of my children.

I blacked out.

Carried away on a stretcher in front of my confused little family, I later learned I hadn’t had a stroke—I’d had a panic attack. Years of striving, overworking, and never feeling like I was enough had finally taken their toll. My body had given me the clearest message possible: something had to change.

That moment forced me to take a hard look at my perfectionism. I had spent years chasing achievement, believing it would bring happiness, but instead, I found myself exhausted and unfulfilled. It took time, research, and trial and error to find my way out of the perfectionist trap—but once I did, I knew I had to share what I had learned.

So I wrote The Perfectionist’s Dilemma: Learn the Art of Self-Compassion and Become a Happy Achiever (Alcove Press, 2025).

Through my work with students, professionals, and high achievers of all kinds, I developed a method to help others rewrite their perfectionist patterns. I call it EVOLVE, a six-step process that transforms perfectionism, procrastination, and workaholism into self-acceptance and agency. (You’ll have to read about what the EVOLVE acronym stands for in the book and wait for future articles!) EVOLVE framework I’ve taught through Harvard University’s mental health services, workshops, and coaching programs.

At its core, EVOLVE helps cultivate three essential inner resources:

• Inner Worth – A deep sense of being okay, no matter what, so you can treat yourself with respect and self-care.

• Inner Leadership – The resilience and courage to navigate failure, advocate for yourself, and find joy in your work.

• Inner Humanity – A wellspring of self-compassion and connection that dissolves shame and deepens relationships.

Perfectionism doesn’t have to hold you back. You can honor your drive for excellence without being consumed by self-doubt and criticism. It’s possible to shift from exhausting perfectionism to happy achieving.

I wrote The Perfectionist’s Dilemma to help others find freedom faster than I did. If my story resonates with you, I’d love to hear yours.

What lessons have you learned about perfectionism? Share your experience in the comments or reach out—I’d love to connect.